Peace--Have You Really Given It A Chance?

Crazy world or crazy people? one for all but none for one? i'm tired of us being smart enough to have the questions but not smart enough to have the answers. moreover, i'm most weary of sounding freakin' whiny and begging for bullshit that will never, ever happen...i want results--- tangible, sturdy, effective, mind strengthening results....not whininess of what should or could or might be. i feel hot with impatience and intolerance-- and that scares and saddens me for i USED to be strong ...so strong in my younger days---  yet also so wonderfully apathetic .Maybe, maybe by NOT giving a shit... comes peace. Maybe THAT'S the blissful paradox and at last a question with an answer!!! sometimes forgiving yourself-one of the hardest things to do-is the best peace you will ever know. Forget what's "right" (California just legalized gay marriages) my youngest son says: who cares? let them marry! (could that be the blessed apathy i used to feel and display when i was his age? or just his confident and laid back live and let live sense of fairness--- misguided, unjudged or not?) i say-forgive yourself and all your doubts and prejudices and especially the shivering in your boots: "oh i'll be sinning if i condone or believe in or for that"--Your soul knows more than you do and your heart can never lie. forgive yourself first. gently so. gently so.
   I  promise, the world will not end..... ONLY YOUR GUILT....