family....such bull. Let me rephase that: my brother
He is the most lost soul i know short of my now deceased ex husband...I love my brother so much. I truly believe he does not know how to do that, simply to love, to feel that.... and that scares me for him. i'm still overcoming such recent war wounds with that guy. he cannot be beat. he is way too strong. but...i think i am stronger, because i came out still feeling, still loving, still caring. i would not let him kill that--tho he did make a grand cruel effort. and believe me, cruel it was. i've seen cruel before. i've been cruel before. but this was in a class all by itself...with god's help, i trust i will heal. for all of you out there who have been hurt by a sibling--DO NOT BLAME YOURSELF and just take one minute at a time. try not to overthink, or to attempt to analyze that of which there is no logic to...it hurts, i know, but remember the saying: forgiving is not forgetting--it's remembering and letting go. i'm still in the how the hell do i let this go???? i'm almost there. the forgiving was easy. the memory i can not change that. the letting go i will continue to work on. and so should any of you, who have been so deeply emotionally cut by a sibling. best of luck and peace.
He is the most lost soul i know short of my now deceased ex husband...I love my brother so much. I truly believe he does not know how to do that, simply to love, to feel that.... and that scares me for him. i'm still overcoming such recent war wounds with that guy. he cannot be beat. he is way too strong. but...i think i am stronger, because i came out still feeling, still loving, still caring. i would not let him kill that--tho he did make a grand cruel effort. and believe me, cruel it was. i've seen cruel before. i've been cruel before. but this was in a class all by itself...with god's help, i trust i will heal. for all of you out there who have been hurt by a sibling--DO NOT BLAME YOURSELF and just take one minute at a time. try not to overthink, or to attempt to analyze that of which there is no logic to...it hurts, i know, but remember the saying: forgiving is not forgetting--it's remembering and letting go. i'm still in the how the hell do i let this go???? i'm almost there. the forgiving was easy. the memory i can not change that. the letting go i will continue to work on. and so should any of you, who have been so deeply emotionally cut by a sibling. best of luck and peace.
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